I LOVED MY FAMILY
I can't help it if no
one will believe me. I know I have had a problem with self-control,
and that's why I'm overweight, but I have tried to tell my sons
not to fall into the same bad habit. I feel that children have
to make up their own minds in this world. I have to admit that
the more I hear about the sinful things my sons are doing, the
more it makes me want to eat. Lately, I just keep a little plate
of food around for when I am feeling depressed, if you'll excuse
me. Yes, it makes me sad to see what my sons have become, but
I love them too much to try to change them. One thing my family
will always be able to say about their father is that he accepted
them just the way they are!
Besides all this, the
doctor just told me the other day that I must keep myself from
getting upset. At my age and weight, he said, it wouldn't take
much to cause a stroke. I suppose you think I should do something
about the way my sons are acting -well, just to satisfy your curiosity,
I did say something about their behavior yesterday. I asked them
why they do all these evil things, and since they wouldn't answer
me, I told them that it is not good to sin against the Lord the
way they have been. That ought to make them more careful! I think
they both know I am not very pleased with the way they have been
I even heard my oldest
boy tell his brother that as long as Israel has the Ark of the
Covenant then God is with us. That's my boy! You see, they really
have some respect for the Lord deep down in their hearts! I'll
let you in on a secret, you see, God understands that my family
is sincere and that we don't mean any harm, and so you can understand
why He is patiently waiting for my boys to grow out of this stage.
Besides, I don't want to cause tension in the family. First of
all because our family is in the public eye, and secondly because
I love them, and... well, I might as well say that I don't think
they will listen to me anyway.
There is one thing that
scares me... that vision little Samuel had about God punishing
my family- but I'm still praying about that. Right now the important
thing is that we get this battle with the Philistines over with.
We can't lose, we've got the Ark of God with us!
Taken from I Samuel 2,3,4